You should read this...for realz

I don't know about some of you other bloggers out there, but just like with every thing else I do, there comes a time when I have to do some deep self reflection on why I am doing whatever it is I'm doing.

I started this blog about a year ago and I have had so much fun making new friends. using this as a creative outlet for myself, finding tons of new ideas for new things, etc;

but I have also reached a level of unrealistic expectations. I look at some of the blogs that I follow on a regular basis and I wonder "why can't I have 539 followers (I just pulled that number out of my behind), or, "why can't I have like 50 people paying to sponsor my site", or the best one yet, "why am I not as popular as ______?" Oh my grapefruit, how TRIVIAL is all this, not to mention just a little high school.

In my attempts to be "popular" I have followed the crowd and tried to host my own weekly link up series, have cool (or at least I think they are cool) giveaways, you know- really branch out; but just like everything else I start, I only half-way do them. Because you see, that's me. Queen of starting great ideas and never finishing them. I have a whole basketful of craft projects that are 85% complete. I don't want my blog to be like that too.

I love the readers that I have because we communicate. I can expect to read a comment from at least a few of you on every post. That is what blogging is all about. Kinda like why I'd never want to attend a huge Mega Church. There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with them, but for me, I like that small get-to-know-the-pastor-his-wife-and-all-his-youngins kinda church. I want my blog to be a place where we can come together and talk and share ideas without all the popularity crap that holds me back.

So I'm throwing expectations out the door. I'm not getting rid of my Ode to Wednesday link up because, honestly, I think writing letters to inanimate objects and then posting them for the whole world to see. I am not, however, promising that it will be available every week, every month, every 3 months. If it happens, it happens, and if it doesn't, well, you won't miss it anyway.

I want my blog to be about me, about my life, about my interests, my hates, my fears, and my honest opinions. I hope that along the way I can attract similar people who feel the same way. I'm not opposed to having 539 followers or more. I'm just going to stop stressing myself out about how to "get there" and just let it happen.

With that being said, I have a bit of a contradictory statement coming up so...BEWARE.

I am creeping slowly toward 100 followers and I would love to have a super cool giveaway in honor of all my super cool readers.

However,

I am not committing myself to buy anything, make anything, dream of anything, etc, because to just be honest, I don't have the time. Our life is psycho crazy right now and I'm doing good just to force myself out of bed every morning after tossing and turning till like 3:00 with a brain that just WON'T TURN OFF!

BUT

If any of you have any ideas for giveaway products either that you have made, that you really like, giftcards to an Etsy shop, whatevah you think would tickle someone else's fancy...then hit me up. You WILL get a super cool post about you and your giveaway item and then some lucky reader will get to bask in all your amazingness.

I hope this post hasn't scared all y'll off. I am so insanely grateful to each and every one of you and I love getting on my blog and reading the comments that you so nicely leave. It really puts a smile on this gal's face. I also hope that I'm not the only one that feels this way. Do any of you struggle with the popularity pull just like back in our teeny bopper days?

Again, thank you guys, you're great.

and OH HOLY CRAP! It's JULY ALREADY! SHEESH TIME, SLOW DOWN!